I am completely tweaked right now, and bouncing off the walls!
Over the past week, an unforseen "financial" issue has arisen with a close, personal friend of mine.
Being the person I am, I am all for resolving this issue in a logical, rational manner. I will do what needs to be done. Period.
And then came the comment. Actually, there were several comments, but the one comment which makes me want to put a hole in the drywall, is the one that illuded to the fact that I am trying to resolve this issue for personal gain.
I understand that this person is under a lot of stress, and the comment about "personal gain" might be an irrational thought. A thought that slipped through emotional censors.
But now I am in a dilema. I need to step back and calm down. I have always been "there" for this person as needed. If this person needed a trailer boarded for the week, I would store it in my driveway. If any computer work needed to be done, I would help this person. In turn, this person has done favors for me as well, without any mention of payback. When I do a favor for someone, a close friend, I do not expect a payback. I had thought that it wasn't a "push-pull", "tug-shove" situation.
The thing that cheeses me beyond belief is that the "comment" had absolutely nothing to do with the financial issue between us. The "comment" was made after I had made the comment that "I hope this issue doesn't come between us." I had thought that this person knew me. The reply "comment" was an obvious shot to me - an attempt for my soft underbelly. I had thought that this person would be in tune with my personality and this person knew that I would do anything to make things right. Unfortunately, the other person's "comment" not only affected me, but it included multiple people. And apparently this person now feels that I only do and say things for personal gain.
I see I won't be swimming anytime soon.
LLS